Well my kids and leaving my wife alone (even though at my worst I thought she would be way better off without me). But... it's amazing since my diagnosis with BP how things have changed. I feel like there has been a reason for my wild, fun, catastrophic, irresponsible, tragic, erratically successful life. The extreme sadness really didn't have a place.. despite the wreck I've caused myself. Life has been very fun despite all that. It's just that the depression ruined things. That is what I understand now.... because nothing else has really changed. I still have to deal with all the problems I've caused myself. I'm still a bit irresponsible even. But.. I no longer think my wife is out to get me... and I'm happy for the first time in a LONG time. So... well.. carry on.