This is the thing for me. I'm still here because of my mum, who's now 84. I never married, have no kids or siblings, and no relatives in this country. I will go when she does. Because then there will be no one. My T doesn't understand that. She should read this thread. Everyone stays because of someone else. If there is no one, then there is no more reason to stay. This is the only place that understands.