About two weeks before he passed away, my husband made me promise three things---that I'd stay sober, stay on my meds, and stay alive. I know he wouldn't want me to die a day sooner than I'm supposed to, and of course my family would be devastated to lose me. I hope I can remember that the next time I get to thinking they'd be better off without me...thank goodness I live with my son and son-in-law, they take good care of me.