I feel that way about myself. On a previous thread there was something about if your depression is driving people away from you. I chimed in saying that I think it did. I've noticed that some people who were nice to me have just stopped being nice to me. So I wonder if I have done something wrong. Maybe I bring people down more than I think I do.

However, lately, I feel like I am getting sick of my only friend that I have. I've been feeling very depressed after talking to him a lot lately over the phone. We hardly get together anymore. We've been friends for four years now. That's about the average "shelf life" I've had with my guy friends over the years. He and I disagree on almost everything. It seems like he shames me when I tell him how I feel.

I wonder what he sees in me? I hang on to him because he's all that I got, plus he has been helpful to me. I asked him one time, "what do you like about me?" He couldn't come up with anything. There are times when I feel like I might be in a toxic relationship.