Eden, you used to make very little sense when you posted. Your old posts were very full of delusion and magical thinking, panic and hysteria. You used no grammar skills -- just kind of unstoppable words with no clear beginning or end.

Your posts recently are more grounded. You make sense and are speaking in more realistic terms. Yes, you still sound like things are still difficult; we don't doubt that. We all know how long it takes for things to really improve. However, there is a marked improvement in your ability to communicate. It may not feel better on the inside yet, but sometimes it takes a long time for the insides and outsides to match up. There is also a tendency for us all to not be able to really see those kinds of improvements in ourselves because we had such poor insight into how ill we were previously that we aren't really able to see the change now.