I wasn't sick before and I am still not sick things are challenging but that doesn't mean it is an illness and I still feel all those things I just stopped writing about them because I couldn't be bothered I still think the meds are poison and I still get freaked out by all the spirits and demons and I still feel bad about what I have done to the Angels I am just my birthday is coming up and I didn't want to be in the hospital for that so I am playing their stupid game for a while then I plan to disappear and no one will have to deal with me.