BeyondtheRainbow, thank you so much. That is really helpful to hear.

I do have some ativan, though I'm running low and should probably call my psych. I typically don't like using benzos when I'll be in public (because my reaction is too inconsistent, worried about getting sleepy/acting weird/derealization and stuff) so I avoided taking it while working, and I've been guilting myself into not using them much generally, but the few times I do remember taking the ativan in the evening a few weeks ago I think it kinda just felt like it didn't even touch the anxiety (like you said in your old post).

A weird symptom I forgot it had been giving me was feeling like crying really easily. So weird, I don't think I've ever had that from meds.
I've taken the patch off for the night, and am going to see how I feel about things tomorrow.

Thank you again, I really appreciate it!