I know it causes me anxiety because it makes feel the way I used to when I was living with my dad and step mom who were alcoholics. So substances are a constant reminder of that not so pleasant part of my life. I understand the benefits marijuana has for people, and I respect people's choices to smoke when it's genuinely beneficial for medical reasons. And specifically CBD use. Not for THC.

I'm willing to meet his friends if that's what he'd like. Because if I asked for him to meet mine and he said no, I'd be really bummed. I don't want to do that to him. But I will not hangout with them. Not just because of the substance use, but I also have social anxiety so it'd suck for me. I will be straightforward with my boyfriend if it does come to that point of him asking me to chill with them. I will remind him how I feel about the drug and alcohol use and he should respect it. He knows why I'm so bothered. I'd hope it won't be a problem.

I just wish I didn't react so badly to marijuana and alcohol in the first place. It's a constant struggle because it's unavoidable. Especially in my state (Oregon) where people live and breathe brews and everything marijuana.