I have read that before, that one's environment must be safe..

But I don't know what I can do, I'm stuck here... I can't drive because of things, it's difficult enough to ride in a vehicle you know... I guess from all the different things that happened inside them...

So if I do some how move out how can I make it to appointments... Or the store, which shopping is completely overstimulating...

Then I have the issue of work and money since I'm having so much trouble with the disability people... Don't want to b on it but wat am I supposed to do...?

I'm dependent on my parents still.. and it's extremely demeaning and embarrassing and shameful ..

My dilemma... I was raised in this mess yet I can't escape it.. you know? Dunno what to do

I'm falling backwards into old bad ways... And Kant even afford to buy the stuff to numb it all .. I'm scared it will never get better .. but what ever..

I didn't sleep at all last night and think the insomnia is making its come back again..

I have to stop writing and deal with the people around now , sorry to write such pathetic post... I'm just scared and overwhelmed 😞

Thanks for listening ❤