Eden, don't do this. Don't undo any progress you have made by going back to lying to your case workers and doctors again. You had made progress and were doing better, but your meds apparently need adjusting. That is normal and would not be surprising to your doctors or case workers. You need to be honest with them about what is going on in your head, what you are afraid of, that you are planning not to take meds again. Going back to what you were doing before will only result in you deteriorating to the point of having to be admitted to the hospital again. You do have a choice here to be truthful and stand up for your own mental health.