Hi, I'm 22 y.o
My mom passed away when I was really young. I was raised mainly by my grandma because both of my parents were working. After my mom passed away, my dad got married again. It was all good.
When I was a bit older, I got some issues at home. I don't feel like trusting anyone in my family anymore. Mainly it was because some things I experienced while growing up. My step mom tends to step on my privacy. My dad was verbally abusive I think when I was young. He also wouldn't let me meet my mom's family. I don't know the reason until now.
I think I have a trauma about trusting people in my family now. I don't feel safe and I keep thinking about moving out. I also think that maybe I've been depressed for a while. I don't want to talk to my family. I tend to stay in my toom all day, watching series or reading books. I don't want to tell them my day or my problem because I simply don't trust them.
There was even one day when my aunt called my step mom as a traitor. Sometimes I'm scared of starting a new relationship too because there was something happened in the past that also had something to do with my family. What should I do?
I can't tell my dad's family because i don't trust them. I can't tell my mom's family because i never really talk to them and my dad wouldn't approve if i do it. I can't talk to my step mom's family too because come on... are you serious? I'm not even close with her and I never talk to them since forever.