I bet they'd be boring? I'm lucky that I'm outside of their jurisdiction. People who overworks don't grow as a person, they got nothing on me, I work hard! If they wanna hear that,,,I still don't say that often.

As I understand it, you FEEL safe, one thing for sure, wherever and whenever my mind takes me to God knows what, I wish I be as strong as I could be, ducking and dodging the danger, when I think of me as one against many, I'd think about odds.

You're smart and capable, please put trust in tiny glimmer of hope somewhere in your head.