Hello unhappydaze: The Skeezyks also just keeps putting one foot in front of the other for the same reasons you're doing so. I also have the repetitive suicidal thoughts. (I've actually made a couple of efforts in that direction.) The good thing in my case is I'm getting older now. So I don't have 20 or 30 years left to worry about getting through. I figure I might have another 10 at the outside.

I believe you're correct about some things just not getting better. I know, in my own case, nothing of substance is going to change. Everything simply is what it is. So I simply strive to accept things just as they are. There was a time, just a few years ago, when I felt like I just couldn't stand any of it another minute. (It led to my most recent, & most serious do-it-yourself effort.) But more recently I've simply come to a place where I'm just content to leave things to Mother Nature to resolve.

By the way, the Skeezyks seldom posts threads of his own either. I live a pretty-much reclusive lifestyle in real life. And it carries over to how I conduct myself here on PC. It's possible to be very active here without ever posting threads of one's own.