Faking it til I make it is why I'm currently doing. Id like a vacation from this world (except from one person) and just shut everyone out! I want to just lay in bed and sleep and not participate in life but I make myself get up. I see t tomorrow. How will I answer when she asks how things have been last two weeks-blah.

I feel spiders crawling on me so I'm freaking out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I hate it!

Sad again but pretending I'm ok. Keep picking sores without thinking I just see blood once I do it.