im sorry but i have to add %#@&#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
mum just rang. she was getting tiddly eyed in a pub by herself. now shes just been crying down the phone about how sick of all this she is. like im %#@&#! not!! and then she asks me if she should ring dad and yell at him.

i sound just like her but i cant cope with this. why the hell do i have to be the bloody adult when im falling apart myself???
oh and i should add she yelled at me for suggesting to dad that maybe the person he thought she was with was this gay male friend of hers because hes completely jealous of this friend. he doesnt believe in gayness as far as i can tell. and i should know having paid a certain amount of attention to his attitudes on this given that im gay myself. but it was either suggest she was with him or with a straight male friend she has or with a %#@&#! lawyer talking about divorce so i went for the lesser of the evils.
im sorry. please. i wish someone could help me. i know im not thinking straight. im sorry im such a freak.