I attempted cause with my Grandpa having been so sick I had it in my mind that I wanted to go before he did, I couldn't at the time imagine my life without him, well needless to say I'm still here and he's not. I stay for my family particularly my parents and Grandma, and my cat, idk if anyone would want him, and I wouldn't want him back at the shelter or re-homed. There are still days where I feel like I was a big mistake and I'd be better off gone, and so would everyone else. I don't really believe in any Gods, so I can't say anything about that, I am spiritual and believe I am afterlife, and reincarnation, but that's about it, my higher power is the universe (at least you can see it), sorry about turning this into a post about my beliefs, but sighs idk if I see a greater plan for myself, or what, but I plan to stay, I have people I don't want to leave behind...