Eden read what you write. It either doesn't make much sense or it's about you lying and sabotaging your mental health all over again. Don't you want to get better? It really seems like you don't. I understand that certain meds don't work the same for everyone. I think what you need is to try a different med because while everyone is saying that you got better, I just don't see it. You've admitted this whole time you're still seeing Angels and Demons etc so I don't see how this is "better".