I'm glad you were able to segue so quickly into not taking it personally. People have lives and struggles just like us. Six years is a long time and I'm sure he had a better plan for you for retirement. Instead, you got the office lackey who is literally trying to shut the place down. Cancel appointments and make referrals for God knows how many patients. She doesn't "know" any of you so she's not considering all the things he would.

I have a feeling you will eventually get an explanation, but IF YOU DON'T you can't take that personal either. When I "**** up" I usually hide from people too. Having to explain to you and everyone else would be daunting. Hope you feel better soon.