I hear you. I have 3 kids, and no job. I recently left my H. It was the hardest most scary thing I ever did. It took me 2 or 3 years to gain teh confidence to leave. It took my T and the people at this site to hep me. To hold me up when I couldn't do anything but fall. I left after 22 years of marriage. There was lots of mental and emotional abuse. I have lots of issues, but he does to.

After leaving the things I remember the most was hearing some one laugh and realizing it was me. I had not laughed in years. Though I forgot how. I learned to take care of myself and stop being a victim.

A year later I have gone back to my H. (like jsut two weeks ago) I have the support of my T, and my church. Many people are watching to make sure things are safe, and to make sure I do not slip back into old habits.

You can do it, you have to do it. In the long run it will be the best decision you ever made. Your children deserve to see how someone should be treated, and most importantly that they do not have to be in any relationship they are not comfortable with. They are worth so much more then that and you are to.

Feel free to read back threw any of my stats. If you need to talk to someone privately feel free to PM me.