What you describe sounds stressful and isolating but I am glad your posting conveys a sense of humor: "I can't talk to my step mom's family too because come on... are you serious?" --Do you have the opportunity to go to a therapist? If you don't, you can post here. It is anonymous, though, if it is a really personal secret I understand your hesitation. But it is still helpful to discuss your feelings here. And I am so sorry about your mom. I know it was a long time ago but it was still really unfortunate! But you sound like your thinking is quite rational. It sounds like you have been forced to isolate due to how your family reacts. Maybe moving out would help your depression? Of course, maybe you still might be depressed after moving out but sometimes I think it helps when we control the things that can be controlled. Sincerely, Myst