I feel sorry for every guy and person that crushes on me because that is a love that I can never return I way to frozen in my own problems to let anyone in until I am that responsible woman with a job and her **** together. Basically I see myself to useless to love because I've had to work the hard and long way just to get my ADHD controlled, sad that anyone would have to put up with what I get like when I am not medicated. For that is not a cross anyone deserves to bear sorry for the man that will have to put up with what I am like when not medicated in the future. If you ask me why I am cold hearted to others affection I had to be in order to not destroy anyone else in order to not take someone down with me. For I know I could not live with myself if anyone had to suffer with me.