I just dont know how i feel. One minute i'm all upset and unhappy for no real reason, and the next i feel fine. Whats that all about? I want to see a T, but i'm also scared too. What if i'm inadequate? What if i say the wrong things? What if they just think i'm some big whiner and see me like the rest of the world does?
I'm just so damn uneasy and upset and ... part if it can be attributed to situational factors, but some times i wonder ... what if there's actually something fundamentally wrong with me?
I wake up in the morning and feel like a failure. I look in the mirror and i see a big fat failure. I get upset and then i only end up becoming more mad at myself for being upset.
I'm sick of crying myself to sleep. Hating myself. Hating who i will undoubtedly become if i keep on living like this. If you can even call this living .
I don't know what to do. I feel like just giving up on life, myself, and the world.