If you think you need to talk with a T then you should do it. Don't be discouraged if the first T you meet with isn't for you. Sometimes it takes a few trial and errors before getting the perfect fit.
I know how impossible it is but don't be so hard on yourself. You are a very valuable person here at PC. There are a lot of friends around to support you.
As for the tears.......I buy tissues by the case. Anytime you need some just let me know.
Take care