Having a job is easy enough, it's the interaction with people that is that hard bit! If I am just sitting in front of my computer doing my work all day and actually able to work then I am very happy. I've been told I likely dissociate through my work as I can get so engrossed I don't hear or see anyone even if they're standing right next to me or wave at me, but I think that's silly because when does being engrossed become dissociation and more unhealthy?! I find it a lot more distressing when I cannot work because I'm depressed or upset or whatever. So I guess work is my routine. However, I'm finding it increasingly difficult to work with people because I find it tiring at times, I'd love to have my own office somehow!

I absolutely hate speed bumps. I'm continually told "things take time", "don't create a timeline as you'll just fail to make it and upset yourself further"...but I want my life. If I can speed up the process so I'm more able to cope on a day to day basis that'd be amazing. I'm tired of it all. As you can tell, acceptance isn't exactly a forte of mine! You seem a lot more able to go with the flow, that's good.