I love that you "*want your life*! I want mine too! I have recently found my 'oomph' in this want to own my own life, and it impels me to do the inner work I need to do.

You can speed up the process by diving in and doing the work. Pushing it down / away/ aside reaaaaaalllly slows it down. I know you don't want to be told that. I know you want the 'quick fix'. We did too. Here's where the 'quick fix' got us - it is nearly 30 years since we first started therapy and I am *only just learning* now that the best way through is by facing the hard stuff head on.
I know. You didn't want to hear any of that (again).

(NEARLY THIRTY YEARS 0_0 !!!!!!)