I have too much anxiety about losing people when they find out how much my bp impacts our friendship. I'd need a friend who wouldn't mind not hearing from me for many weeks when I'm depressed, and likes to shop with a manic person when I'm like that. Doesn't happen often but enough to have friends take it personally. Also I'm agorophobic, so I can only go certain places or stay at home.

I have one friend who has a son who has bp and she even sometimes gets short, but we can talk about it. It would be neat to have a friend from anywhere who has bp, but what if we cycled each other? I'm afraid to be a friend to someone who has bp. Hell, I'm afraid to have a friend.....