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Originally Posted by Wander
I can totally relate. I saw my pdoc yesterday and felt I might need a med change. I ruminated over it for days beforehand wondering what he would come up with. It made me anxious as I wanted to do the right thing but didn't know what it was. Do I sit with the depression and wait it out a bit longer or risk a change? In the end my doctor and I decided to leave things as they are unless I worsen or get suicidal.
For you though it must be so much more stressful as it is a new psychiatrist. How were you feeling before you got depressed a few weeks ago? Is this current situation something you can manage for another month, or do you need it to change sooner? Maybe the depression will pass, or not get too bad. I really hope so. It is such a hard decision to make. Good luck with your appointment and I hope your new pdoc is a good one.  |
Thank you. I think the part that is making me the most nervous is that it is a new Psychiatrist. I was actually referred since my pdoc is on vacation, and my Therapist felt it was necessary to get in with someone sooner. Plus, she thought I needed to see someone who spends more time with patients, and I was recommended this pdoc. I checked reviews online after making my appointment....they are a little mixed, but the receptionist was very helpful when I called, and she has a detailed intake packet to fill out ahead of time. My other pdoc did not have anything as detailed.
Before I got depressed, I had some cycling with hypomania and depression, with some mixing. My behavior was erratic and more impulsive than usual. I crashed, and now the consequences are catching up to me from when I was in that state. Also, I've missed days of work because of feeling depressed, overwhelmed, low self worth, not feeling like doing anything, and losing hope. I have insomnia, and I feel my thoughts are "loud" and race at night. I wake up with a negative feeling. I was having on and off suicidal thoughts a week ago. Depression is really starting to affect relationships with others too since I'm withdrawing. I think work is a trigger, and I do not feel like socializing. It's not that I have anything against others, but I just do not feel up to anything anymore.