yes I can relate completely.
I am afraid of leaving my pdoc. I don't really like her, she judges me about my drinking. I think that I am under medicated but am afraid of what new meds will do to me and won't like the side effects. I run on the hypo side.
This last appointment I mentioned another problem that I was having and she was very supportive. I did not bring up my feeling that I needed a med change.
oh well.
I am drinking so much, think it is hypomania causing this to happen to me.
Maybe if I was better medicated I would not want to drink so much.
bizi