i haven't been diagnosed or anything but i thought that this would be the best place to post. as some of you might remember my best guy friend tried to kill himself over the summer. he sent me a text message saying he was sorry and that he loved all of us. my friend and i were the ones who found him. lately it has all been coming back in my dreams at night. i see everything so well and i live through the whole things everynight. somtimes in slow motions and sometimes it speeds up. i see everything: where the exact placement of his clothes were, where i put my leftover food, what song was on the tv everything!! at first i thought of it as nothing but it happened every night for like 2 weeks. i tried talking to my friend about it (the one who was there as well) and she 'seemed' like she understood and yeah she prolly did to some extend but i have been feeling so alone, haveing no one to love me.
all this has gone for now, but if i watch a movie and it has suicide in it, or someone around my age is sick or get hurt pieces come back and i think of him.
i talked to him a couple of weeks ago and he had started a new job and because of this new job it was creating major amounts of stress so he started cutting again. i asked him about when he started and it was around the same time that i was having all the dreams/nightmares. is this normal?? when something goes wrong with him am i somehow going to know?? or is it because i am so worried about him??? i don't know..... its confusing... i cried so hard when he told me that he was cutting again what if it happens all over again?? well thats all for now, thanks for listening!