thankyou so much for all of yur advice. My pdoc is a trained psychotherapist not just a counsellor. She is qualified to give a diagnosis now, recently passed her degree and has been in mental health for a number of years.

I will go and see the psychiatrist also, they have more say over here than general practitioners when it comes to mental health.

the waiting list is 2 years for a pdoc, but this is for an initial assessment which I should have had last time, I couldn't wait that long, so I met my pdoc at a rape crisis centre, I am lucky cos she is actually qualified! Landrd on my feet there.

I actually agree with maybe coming off pills as they inhibit parts of your brain, I want to get fully rid of my deamons, gone outta here deamon free as far as I can, some meds block the deepest bits dont they?

i REALLY appreciate all your help and support, I'll keep you posted, my appmnt with psychiatrist is nov 19th.

Love, Kerry xooxoxoxoxo