You were talking about things your care team weren't aware of, and I'm just saying they already know. And that it isn't as big of a deal to them if you go off your treatment as it is to us, because we've been supporting you through terrible suffering, with our empathy and sympathy, and it might matter more to one of us who care about you if you go off your treatment, than it might matter to the professionals on your care team.

You do matter to them, but they are trained to not get too close to their patients. On pc, you're in contact with a whole lot of people with open hearts. It isn't as easy for us to have to stand by, powerless, as you go off and on your meds and treatment.