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Old Sep 23, 2016, 02:54 AM
Shawn447 Shawn447 is offline
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Location: NJ
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My story: Last year, I was an 18 year old who was also a virgin. I was never in a relationship before and girls didn't seem to even know that I existed. I'm also very socially awkward. I had a very high sex drive though and I wanted to have sex really badly. It was really bad, sometimes I would literally get angry because of how bad I wanted it and my inability to attract girls. I would also see a lot of sexual things on TV and the internet which made things worse. I would watch porn a lot but it wasn't enough, I wanted to experience the real thing. Anyway, I never wanted to see prostitutes prior to seeing the first one. I thought of it as a last option I could use if I ever got to be over 25 and still been a virgin. One day though, it hit me that all I would have to do is find a prostitute and it could all be over with. I could just go on the internet, find one, pay her some money, have sex with her, and I could finally experience sex. Needless to say, I started browsing backpage and I found one. She was my age, 18. I texted her and set up the appointment and we did it. Overall, it wasn't a terrible experience but it wasn't great either. I was sort of disappointed afterward. However, I finally wasn't a virgin anymore but the urges to have sex still persisted and my situation with girls still wasn't changing at all. I've seen nine other prostitutes since then and I'm now 19. It started to become like an addiction to me. I liked the feeling of browing backpage, finding an escort that I liked, traveling out to her house, paying her, and receiving sex in exchange for the money. I've made a vow to myself now that I'm done with it and I never want to do it again. After my latest session, I felt so bad about myself. If other people or my family knew what I was doing, they'd never see me the same or think of me as pathetic. I feel like if I get a girlfriend in the future, I can't tell her about the prostitutes but if I don't, I feel like I'll be being dishonest to her. I honestly wish I never started seeing prostitutes. It didn't help my self-esteem at all and I sort of wish I still had my "innocence". I wish I would have waited for someone that I cared about and someone that cared for me as well.
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