You may be in trance,which is created when child is getting abused to save him/her going insane at thought of parents being abusive and frightening,so child goes into trance,then parents are not so bad,and not so frightening. Child cannot cope with truth of parents behavior,so this allows it to make it not so bad. Problem is,the child STAYS a child emotionally/psychologically, resulting in inappropriate behavior,
desire to please,gets taken advantage of,etc.,etc. Commonly known as "Adult-Child-Syndrome",please see therapist to work through this and literally wake up from trance-state. And/or get book "Creating Love" (self-love) by John Bradshaw,for full explanation of trance-state and recovery.
Kindest Regards,
BLUEDOVE