i appreciate it woods girl.. welcome here <3

im trying to catch up with my age and realize i still have time but time sucks so bad

thats like what my therapist is trying to get through to me, i try to see it that way but it really is really hard sometimes

because i guess i just disconnect, or clock out, and parts of me do whats needed to get through without pain .. often i find myself looking out and wondering whats happening knowing that i have been acting out of character for me, but im not allowed to be myself to others or else more pain be caused, but i desperately want to be seen and heard and felt and all that good stuff

i fighting with myself over who i am i guess, and dont want to give in to any one side so i end up here trying to make sense of stuff i guess..? im glad this place is here though, to meet others that care and try to hold onto this part that i am so that i cn control the others and not lose it all

i hope you are doing well, i know being here pretty much means you are having some issues but we are here for you as well

thanks for your message.. you are strong too <3