I can definitely relate to your pain. I've been depressed for many years and have tried countless meds but nothing has helped. I pray for the day when I can get out of all this pain. I would welcome death over this any day. I know that my grown children and grandchildren need me and would be devastated if I took my own life. I just pray that some day there will be an answer for all of us. Hugs to you all my fellow sufferers. I have nothing but respect and love for all of you.