Ride, I am going through something similar although not quite so far away from her. My wife and I have been seperated for going a two months now and I have not really had that time with my kids and it breaks my heart. Last Monday I called 911 because I was at the bottom of the barrell and thought I was going to hurt myself. I spent the next three days in a hospital. While I was there I learned quite a bit. The docs put me on Wellbutrin XL and it takes about ten days for it to really start working, but I feel different now. I am not as upset as I was before and I think more clearly. I will keep you in my prayers, just remember to keep smiling because that is the one thing that no one can take away from you.