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Old Sep 24, 2016, 03:54 AM
anon12516
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I was told I almost died and enduring a breathing machine was really traumatic. When you are on a breathing machine you are mute.
It did shock my dad and siblings, they live in "the West" and had not seen me for years (I was isolating). But it was surprising the way that everyone stayed with me in the hospital all day long after I left ICU (I was in the hospital 21 days). My siblings had the kind of jobs that are hard to leave for such a long time but they did and my family was there a lot.
My mom died at a young age. It made the special events (marriages, graduations, births) very sad. Tears were always shed concerning not being able to share major life events with her (and her death was not a suicide). So it does make a big difference.
I know everyone is different and many at PC cannot emerge from the awful pain that depression causes. And when your depressed, it is hard to enjoy your family, you just don't have many happy emotions. It sucks. I am so grateful that a lot of my depression lifted earlier this year and I can feel joyful (along with sadness and tons of anxiety). I hope that everyone that posts in the depression forum can experience joy. The joy really is more intense after you have been under a veil of darkness for a long time. But for me, it only lifted due to realizing how important my role is in my family plus being more open to treatment provided by my therapist and psychologist. I might have to be on medication for the rest of my life making me feel "different" from people who have not dealt with mental illness. And I don't always feel as stable as I felt when I was younger and felt like I was in control of my destiny.
I hope someday Humpty Dumpty, Little Cat, Aussie sheepdaze, and everyone else a PC can feel more joy! You are all such beautiful souls with so much to offer!
Hugs from:
Fuzzybear, MtnTime2896, qwerty68, Yours_Truly
Thanks for this!
MickeyCheeky, MtnTime2896