my friend bethany introduced me to avenue q

if you've ever listened to the soundtrack, you'll know that the very last song on the soundtrack is them all singing together, about everything only being for now. it really helps me knowing that, and listening to that song (I try and listen to it less because i still miss bethany and it brings back memories), but it does help

the other thing that helps me through is emilie autumn's music

sort of calming in a strange way- I think because so much of it is relatable to my life