I lost friends, marriage, professional potential/direction, time.

I have tried, and still participate in, counseling, medication therapy, acupuncture, massage, meditation.

I have well and truly lost many opportunities with work and friends. I really want to find more clarity inside to be present in each moment. I have friends now, 2 part time jobs (which may be too much). I'm trying to simplify my goals to match my limitations, and this is so difficult for me. Today, for example, I had a few simple plans, and now they seem impossible because I feel paralyzed in sadness and self-doubt.