Thanks for all the supportive words, you guys. I need it.

Was feeling a little better this morning and had determined to go to my class at the gym. Then I realized it was my husband's aunt's birthday today - we were very close to her, and we lost her in July. I realized this is the start of all the 'firsts' without her (first birthday, first Thanksgiving, first Christmas, etc.) and that's a painful path to go down.

Checked my email, and I had a message from my brother; he lost a friend in his squadron today/yesterday (time difference, I'm not sure). The man was really young with a wife, child, and one on the way. I can't stop thinking about her getting the news and what it's going to do to her and their kids.

Still decided to go to the gym; was trying to hold it together and keep focused. Pulling out of the garage, I felt the car bump over something and heard my dog yelp! He was clear when we got in the car, but he's old & deaf and must have moved close to one of the tires. He can't hear the car, and he must have been looking away when I started to back up. I jumped out quickly to check on him; he's fine (thank goodness!). I think I just caught his hind foot. He's not limping or anything, but it fractured the hold I had on myself.

Of all of this, I can't get the thoughts of that man's poor family, and how wrecked my brother and the rest of his squadron are, out of my head. Tough day again...