In short, my life.

I gave up on friends and relationships well over a decade ago.

While I did manage to finish school and was feeling positive about the future, my MH collapsed a few short months after my thesis defense. I can get job interviews but they are all day affairs; sometimes multiple days, and no matter how well I answer questions I can't hide my MH issues for that long so I don't get the job.

It is my birthday and I am sitting here taking stock and I got nothing. A completely wasted life and I am not sure if I could change that, or how. I am off my anti-psychotic and my energy levels are returning but now I face the prospect of having to live with psychosis unmedicated since dopamine antagonists were the cause of my low energy levels. So it is one step forward and a couple steps back.