Lately, I feel like I can only spend very limited time around others. I'm not as interested in things and relationships any more because of the depression I am experiencing. If my boyfriend had a choice, he'd see me more, but twice a week is more than enough for me, because I just feel drained all of the time. Besides him, in general, I don't feel like doing much. I was asked to go on a trip to Florida. It's not that it doesn't sound nice to me, it's just that the last thing I feel up to doing is traveling and being around people. I'm dragging my feet doing anything lately.

Just today, I was asked to take the train to NYC and stay with people. When I'm not depressed, that sounds like a great idea. Since I am depressed though, it sounds like a terrifying idea. I try to tell people I am tired and not to take it personally, but I am a people pleaser and end up feeling guilty or as if they are just going to stop wanting to be my friend. I want to hold on to the relationships in my life, but I feel I am unable to keep up with the pace of others. I wish people would just understand.

Any tips on how to explain to others that it is not them, it's what's going on with yourself when depressed? How do you avoid putting too much pressure on yourself or deal with the guilt of saying no to things? I feel there's too many demands placed on me and can barely hang on to my job.