Thank you. I'm trying to just be upfront. I'm hoping the people in my life don't just ditch me and take it personally......that would hurt a lot. I put myself down a lot, like "Why would anyone want to be around me in this state? Then I feel worthless. The last thing I want to do is drag others down. I would love to be a part of things, but I just can't. I'm mentally not able to at this point in time. I do feel I'm missing out, but know I'm too depressed to enjoy the things that others do right now unless it's little things in small doses.....even that is hard.