You've heard me before about him, and nothing has changed. Accept this: he's leaving for almost three months to his home state. Oh he informed me last month so it's not surprising or a shock. He even told me what particular city in the state. And when he did, I heard him (on the phone) groan with "gotta get this done."
I know about his cancer, told to me from momma, so that means that it didn't come from him. I'm figuring that maybe because we're new, he wants to wait, at least that's the opinion of a male friend. I don't know nor am I worrying about why he didn't tell me himself. I do know that, since I'm at high risk for uterine cancer because all three of my sisters had it, and I have intermittent bleeding at times, I haven't told him, preferring to wait myself.
The main thing here though in my opinion is I'm going crazy imagining all sorts of things concerning of course other women, and maybe that's really why he's leaving. Yes, Im aware that usually when a person groans with "I gotta get this done" it's usually because they have to do something they rather not as in unpleasant.
It's baggage from past relationships I know but still.
But still I'm also aware of what he said a couple days ago when he called and his exact words were "You have nothing to worry about regarding our relationship...I want you to know that."
I know I need to work on stuff and I'm telling you I'm trying. He has never, and I mean NEVER given me reason to doubt him! But now that this trip is happening I'm finding myself not able to think straight.
His mother was in the hospital yesterday, so I know he's stressed. I tried to call him yesterday, it just rung, so I left a message. Today I texted him.
I'm going to miss him like I never did anyone!!!
Any opinions welcome, but please make them positive. I'm already suffering from missing him already plus my negative thinking.