I was reading some place else where someone in T wanted to know how they could work on their issues? They said how they reply to T's questions and sometimes argue and debate them.

Someone replied, "its about the feelings that go on between you and T when there are no questions"

Wow so simple but it really hit a spot. I often wish T would chat and talk. Now I guess its because of the anxiety and tension I feel in the silences, which I've not really taken a deep look at, not really.

I sometimes say that I keep expecting T to turn nasty any minute now, like mother would, but I've not ventured deeper than that.

HHmmm gotta go think about this.