"no one can make you feel inferior without your permission." - eleanor roosevelt.

its not you fault per se.

youre not alone. on average, most women go back to their abusive partners at least 5-7 times before they finally leave for good, if they ever do leave.

you knowing its wrong is the first step. i went back probably a dozen times and eventually i took all my stuff and lived in my car for a month until i found a friend with a couch. well i beat the ever long %#@&#! out of him first, then i left. you can do it. if i did it at 17 you can do it now.