Sometimes things are just two steps forward, one step back, and there's not much rhyme or reason to it. I think the important thing is to be patient with yourself, and to not lose heart (after all, you did spend a week without thinking about her and that will happen again, and more frequently in the future). You were badly treated by someone who knew you extremely well and was supposed to be in a helping profession, and that is not a betrayal that you can get over lightly. But I know from my own experience and lots of others here that there are great T's out there, though there are an alarming number of terrible ones. You know more about therapy now, and you will be able to find someone good sometime soon I hope. Maybe try distracting yourself with a list of questions you want to ask the next prospective T? Like about how they handle terminations, for starters.