I think breakups are tougher when there's really no hard feelings, but there's really no future.

Sometimes life changing events are catalyst for other changes in life. Sorry to hear about your dad.

I can understand what you are saying about wondering about losing him while reevaluating your relationship. My divorce was finalized months after losing my mom. Her cancer was aggressive so the timeline from beginning to end was about the same. Losing a parent when younger places many things into a different perspective. Even relationships and friendships.

Wish I had answers or advice.