While in a "normal" or as close to it as I get state, if I think about times that I was manic and/or in psychosis the memories are not concrete. When you think about it, reality is whatever you believe it to be during psychosis. Things that I imagined, and things that were real were assigned near equal values in my memories from those times.
On the other side of that equation. While in psychosis, my memories from times I was stable, and had a reasonable grasp of reality are subject to reinterpretation, often becoming twisted or rewrote (temporarily) to support whatever delusion I am convincing myself of at the time.
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