Thank you, WhatToDo, for the translation of OP! And regarding BipolaRNurse's post about her sister. She says her sister is a lot like mine. As for loving my own sister, I don't know what love is. I love who she used to be, not what she is now. She's become a radical, extreme "positive person" who apparently keeps her sanity somewhat intact by living in denial about anything bad, unpleasant, or anything that can't be meditated away somehow -- for herself or me or other people she hurts. Unfortunately, she started on this track after I was in a religion like that for 11 years. She got the idea from me. Hopefully she, too, will wake up to the real world. I personally and strongly believe that if she and I could go to therapy together and work out some really deep stuff -- the relationship she and I had as kids -- this would bring about a good relationship between us now. But she is not willing to do this. As the older sister by 6 years, I picked on her a lot. I was also a very good sister in so many ways. She remembers a lot of things I did for her -- things I had completely forgotten -- and I'm grateful to her for this. But she puts a positive spin on some mean things I did to her -- let's call it creative and serious teasing. I have tried to make gentle and loving amends to her for some of it, and she is lukewarm about my amends. I feel very bad about the times I treated her badly when she was little, and have felt bad for decades, but she refuses to talk about our home life because she says it brings her down. So I've cut her out of my life because our relationship was so harmful to me.